Take a bite of my heart tonight.

MOVED!

2010-11-12T23:48:00.001+08:00

I've decided. It's time to move on to...

itaintsosweet.tumblr.com

Cheers.

2010-11-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

2010-11-07T11:44:00.000+08:00

2010-11-04T19:26:00.001+08:00

My brain's repeating.

2010-11-02T00:36:00.006+08:00

You know how you meet someone and you somehow kinda instantly know you like him/her. It might not even be in a romantic way, it's more like you look at each other, and like shit i want to know everything about you. Polka dots or stripes? What is the one song you can never get sick of? Do you love the noise of the rain? Even though we barely spoke that night but we connected and we did our things, i had a f.awesome time, and I really hope you did too.

I hate the feelings of you're not expecting anything but something still telling you that you're expecting something.

2010-10-31T01:54:00.001+08:00

Sweet! Brings back all the young memories during upper primary/ lower secondary?

2010-10-27T01:02:00.000+08:00

2010-10-21T21:24:00.001+08:00

What I really need right now is to be anywhere with green grass, a bowl of strawberries and chocolate. There’ll be swing on a tree and sit there with a love one, and we’d just sit there in silence. I wouldn’t mind lying down in the middle of the road watching traffic lights change colours in the middle of the night as well.

You're way too beautiful boy.

2010-10-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

Felt it in my fist, in my feet, in the hollows of my eyelids.

2010-10-08T22:11:00.005+08:00

Attachment has been fair. Everyday is a challenge for me. When it comes to attachment, I don't like challenges. I'm exhausted. Muscles in my body is already weak. I don't know whether I can survive this. Not surprising, I'm sick now, having an irritating bad cough and slight fever. Hate having a low immunity body. How I wish I'm fit, healthy and strong.

I want to leave. I see more and more people are getting away, pursuing their dreams, traveling to foreign land and just getting away and escape. I'm jealous. Oh well, I'm stuck here. I wanna get away, see the world, see the whole universe, stumbling here and there, meeting strangers, especially fall in love. Anything.

I'm gonna travel with my friends after I graduate. Already have some plans with sexy Gaya and I simply can't wait. I don't care if my parents don't allow me to. I'm going to have so much fun during this trip. Then, my future starts. This worries me.

2010-10-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

Yeah.

The dog days are over.

2010-10-02T23:27:00.005+08:00

Let's face it. We've changed. We all changed. Somewhere between, anything. We've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendship were fucked over. New people came into our lives, and they seems more understanding, caring each other feelings and not hurting each other and their presence is always there. Only minority of the old people stays. We no longer hang out with the circle of friends that thought gonna be "forever". We've all changed. Some for the better and some for the worse.

Then our hearts combined like neutron star collision.

2010-09-30T16:22:00.002+08:00

Cos you're up and you're down...

2010-09-27T23:31:00.002+08:00

Aw, I wanna play dress up with Elmo too.

2010-09-25T18:57:00.000+08:00

I want to be the kind of person who can do that. Move on and forgive people and be healthy and happy. It seems like an easy thing to do in my head. But it’s not so easy when you try it in real life.

WAITING FOR YOU, SUSANE COLASANTI

2010-09-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

Rape me again.

2010-09-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

Exhausted. I'm so f. exhausted. My body can't take it.

2010-09-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

Sometimes. Being alone. Is better. Sometimes. It's not.

2010-09-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

Three words; it goes on.

2010-09-03T23:07:00.009+08:00

Fuckyeah. I want this nano! Mother? Puh-lease? Talking of ipod and my mother. Was having this conversation awhile ago with her. There's this contest, where if you win, you'll get an iPad. So ask her, what if i win, it's gonna be awe-freaking-some. Guess what she replied - it's only EYEPAD, you can get that at watson. Zzzz.

Can I say it over and over again. Time passed swiftly, like seriously. Next week is already Hari Raya and Ramadhan is ending soon. Anyways, was browsing through YouTube, and I can't believe that I have no idea that The Vines was in singapore, performed at singfest. How can I not know! Vampire Weekend is coming, I can't afford to miss them. Gonna get tix soon, I don't care if I'm going alone. I must go! Anybody?

Today was the last paper. You know what, I'm gonna miss NP. And especially my girls. I'm gonna miss sitting in tutorial/ lecture, commenting on people and blah blah blah. And I think I miss Shak and Siok already. I'm gonna hate my coming attatchment. Attachment is not with them. ):

Oh wells, have a great weekends x.

2010-08-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

iWant.

2010-08-22T00:56:00.001+08:00

I wanna get this. My keypad is ~~white~~ turning yellowish already.

2010-08-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

I am.

JEFFREY LIGHTFOOT.

2010-08-15T00:55:00.003+08:00

Boy, you got that malay accent going on. I love! Damn, you're only 15. But I don't care! HEEEE!

Inside I'm screaming.

2010-08-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

Holiday has not been starting well caused I was hit by 38.6 high fever. My body temperature never been that far. Sometimes, I like being sick cause I don't eat much and can't really taste anything. Now my blocking nose annoyed the hell outta me.

I need to breathe.

2010-08-10T14:05:00.001+08:00

"What we all want, really, is to be loved. That craving drives our worst behavior."

- Jodi Picoult

2010-08-08T01:41:00.002+08:00

Are you here forever standin' by the road
With the benefit of feelin' on your own
Where the river ends the sun is comin' down
Through the vision valley waitin' to be found

- Vision Valley ; The Vines

Tamed/Untamed.

2010-08-06T23:32:00.004+08:00

I visited a friend at one of the hospital just now. Got to know, my friend suffered DO. I don't know the real reason behind this, I don't care. The thing that I care about is that I'm very glad that my friend is fine now. We talked, my friend told me the whole story, what happened. It was scary to hear the things my friend went through, suffering, and was unconcious. Doctor did alot of things on my friend. A tiny part of me understands there are some stuffs-you-just-don't-wanna-tell-people. Some people may look strong on the outside, but the inside, you don't know what's happening. Sometimes doing harm to your body although it's a tough pain, it's a satisfying let-everything-out. I don't say that committing suicide is a right thing to do, by the way, I just got to know that committing suicide is a crime, although I've been studying psychology on suicide for 3 years. I wanna compliment, not, that my friend was brave to do this kind of thing but on the other hand, it's sad that my own friend did this kind of thing. I am very glad that my friend is well and fine now.

When I was talking and listening to my friend and was on a long bus ride just now, I was thinking about all this. Truthfully, there's nothing to look forward to in my life. I kinda losing faith in my life and everything I do, my future, my present. WHAT IF (JUST what if) one day I'll turn bizzarre, out of my mind, I will do all this. Cause, I'm starting to lose faith in humanity. And sometimes I think people around me, is not what I think they are.

GIRLS.

2010-07-31T14:11:00.004+08:00

2010-07-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

2010-07-25T14:34:00.001+08:00

I like my sneakers to get dirty too. Clean and new is so boring. Talking of shoes, miss wearing my vans. It's been ages. Need to buy white candles, wax it at the back then I can wear it.

2010-07-23T23:27:00.000+08:00

Changing and I don't feel the same.

2010-07-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

I wanna find that happy place. What do I wanna do? Who I wanna be? It's happening so fast. I don't wanna grow up. It seems that everyone's life is changing in a great way. It just got me thinking. What am I doing? I'm still studying, but what gonna happened after I graduate. Where is my life taking? I wanna do something. I wanna be excited about something.

I don't know...

2010-07-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

Jack, listening to you, makes me wanna soak my feet in the sand.

2010-07-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

This performance was moving. I lover her lipstick colour!

This is.

2010-07-16T20:56:00.018+08:00

I said to myself that I won't type anything solemn(?). However. I don't feel like myself sometimes. Feeling distant from myself, the people I know, anything and everything. I tend to get annoyed and sensitive with what people says. Lots of things bothers me. I keep thinking. I think people forget that I'm a human too.

I love whoever is in my life, I don't regret meeting and having them in my life, ~~except for one creature out there (was).~~

2010-07-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

OHHHMYGAWDD. I WANTTTTT.

2010-07-11T21:48:00.001+08:00

Cute boys. Cute.

2010-07-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

Catastrophy.

2010-07-09T23:38:00.002+08:00

Just read about two JC students committed suicide. I'm sad reading on this kind of news. They were depressed, stressed out, to solve a problem- commit suicide. Nothing new. This is Singapore's living. And I HATE it. Chasing over a paper of qualification, study study study to get to the highest standard.

I am stressing out over freaking FYP and NS5. Feel like quitting sometimes.

Yes baby.

2010-07-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

I want Jacob as my warewolf pet with those thick fur and Edward my forever vampire boyfriend. Can? Forever team Edward. I'M GOING NUTS AND CRAZZYYYYY.

Hush hush the world is quiet.

2010-07-02T20:20:00.001+08:00

Tired of:
Sleeping too little. Sleeping too much. School. FYP. People. People who don't reply texts. Being alone. Inability to trust. The past. The present. The future. Overthinking. I feel myself get tired. School has been so wrong, Tomorrow is the weekend, such a good day to stay in bed and cry.

End this on a better note. I can't fucking wait to watch Eclipse! I heard it's so so so good.

2010-06-25T16:32:00.000+08:00

Take me as I am.

2010-06-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

I wanted to type something that makes me feel alive and less sad. But I couldn't think of anything.

No more.

2010-06-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

I'm not impressed by jakarta. The traffic jam was beyond horrible, the people there really have no manners - they'll push you and they won't apologise if they hit you or something. All these annoyed the hell outta me. I didn't enjoy much on this holiday to jakarta honestly. The only thing I enjoyed was when we went to this mountain/hill where it was cold and to see volcano thingy was cool. Shopping was fine but not that satisfying. And I'm fat now.

I wanna go back to BKK and shop at chatuchak! ):

Later.

2010-06-18T01:00:00.002+08:00

On hiatus.

2010-06-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

2010-06-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

Losing.

2010-06-16T01:03:00.000+08:00

PMS is taking over me (I think). I'm not sure what problems I have with myself.

Sometimes I wanna let things out, but I can't. I still prefer to keep it to myself. It's not good. I will say to myself, "just cry, let everything out". It's been raining on my face.

Yes it feels good but, there's always a but. People may think I don't need anybody, but I need somebody. My head can explode. Human beings all they do is complain and complain. I'm a human being and I complain alot. I wish I could complain to someone how unfair my life is and I'm not satisfied with it and blah blah blah.

I am not okay.

2010-06-15T02:50:00.001+08:00

2010-06-15T01:13:00.001+08:00

"Well I talk a little about that,

but I don't admit that from the beginning

I knew we were not meant to be together."

- Jodi Picoult (Keeping Faith)

Rob Pattz.

2010-06-12T22:00:00.000+08:00

I love him. Shut up.

Hope you don't read this?

2010-06-06T22:07:00.008+08:00

It's been fine that all this while I pretend not to see you. And I did that yesterday, again. And you called out my name. Why. You shouldn't have. Cause it felt weird, awkward, to me. I don't know why. I couldn't figure out quickly what kind of smile I should give you. And I don't know was the smile I gave you, was a smile or not a smile at all or... I don't know.

On a funny note, you look diff-ferr-rent. Haha.

2010-06-06T00:40:00.001+08:00

Ahh, this is why I love Nicholas Sparks.

Stuffs that makes me fat, makes me happy.

2010-05-31T00:17:00.003+08:00

I want all of these now while waiting SPSS to finish downloading. I need my sleep. The downloading is taking bloody forever!

2010-05-29T13:27:00.008+08:00

You don't know how much hatred I've towards you, Idiot. (Yes I call you Idiot, but outside, I call you worst than "Idiot").

Time has passed quickly that sometimes I feel that it's ridiculous.

2010-05-29T02:05:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking about people in my life now. Yes kinda random. People come and go. They arrive, consume what they can then leave. Like locusts. Now has just come to a point where I know that everyone has taken their permanent positions and roles in my life. Anyways, I need a day like this (28th May) to buzz off from my school shits.

Thanks Tah and At for the day. You girls are insane in the membrane. XXXX.

Need to go back to school shits now. Common tests, practical test are coming. All these are eating my brain. And how nice, time like this I'm getting sick.

My guilty pleasure.

2010-05-21T20:12:00.001+08:00

Trust me, it's not looking good.

2010-05-19T16:35:00.001+08:00

I kinda want a new life.

I need new plans.

I want surprises in my life.

I don't want routines.

I want some help.

I'm trapped.

School are not made of sweet dreams.

2010-05-13T16:24:00.001+08:00

School is pure shit. I need rest. I need long holidays. Come to mama!

2010-05-08T20:28:00.001+08:00

2010-04-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

I love the physical act of being squashed by the arms of another person. I need a hug.

2010-04-27T20:11:00.001+08:00

2010-04-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

I want some of this nowwwww.

In my place.

2010-04-23T23:19:00.001+08:00

Shit now I have too many things to update. Hi. It's been dinosaurs years I've not been giving proper updates. Pressure pressure pressure pressure. People are pressurising me. Don't wanna explain more. So, how am I? Not good. School has started. It's a disaster. First week of school is over. Time passed so fast like hotcakes. Scary. Tons of assignments coming up especially FYP. Have to hand in individual FYP assignment in 2weeks time. FML. I've been moody lately and I don't know why. Sometimes I wanna be alone, but I know I would be lonely. I don't like that. Yes I complain about it but we complain about everything, we're never going to be satisfied.

My life with world wide web is boring cause I can't view any videos on YouTube. I don't know what's on earth wrong with my safari with YouTube or just YouTube I don't know.

I don't know what to do with my hair. See, I complain alot. I know I don't want to cut it. Probably I'll just dye it black. Back to black. This colour on my hair now is horrible.

I've got more to say but just plain lazy to type everything down. I wanna get out of this concrete jungle. And God, please find me a real human. Amin.

2010-04-16T01:10:00.001+08:00

In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, The right person will still think the sun shines outta your ass. That's the kind of person worth sticking with . - Juno

Is bored and a tad annoyed so I'm doing this.

2010-04-10T00:07:00.001+08:00

(x) stayed single for the whole year 
( ) kissed in the snow

( ) celebrated Halloween
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken 
(x - I think so) broke someone else’s heart
( ) had a stalker 
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone 
(x) had a good relationship with someone
(x) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant 
( ) had an abortion 
(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(x) done something you’ve regretted 
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER 
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile 
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand 
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants 
(x) visited a foreign country 
(x) cut in a line of waiting people 
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t 
( ) partied to celebrate the new year 
( ) cooked a disastrous meal 
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I… 
(x) broke a promise
(x) lied 
(x) went behind your parents back 
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x - I think I did) disappointed someone close 
(x) hid a secret 
(x) pretended to be happy 
( ) slept under the stars 
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution 
(x) met someone who changed your life 
( ) met one of your idols 
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing 
(x) pretended to be sick

(x)left the country
(x) almost died 
( ) given up something important to you 
( ) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself 
(x) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it 
(x) made a change in your life 
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people 
(x) stayed up til sunrise 
(x) cried over the silliest thing 
(x) was never home on weekends 
( ) got into a car accident 
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you 
( ) had someone close to you die 
(x) had a high cell phone bill 
(x) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight 
( ) went to the beach with your best friend
(x) saw a celebrity 
(x) gotten sick 
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time 
(x) became closer with a lot of people

2010-04-03T21:18:00.001+08:00

Not kidding, I really want to. Want to get out of here.

2010-03-28T14:19:00.000+08:00

Have to say though, and it really is ok and better that I don't treat you as my friend anymore. Totally a stranger to me. It's much better this way, I don't have to listen to your sweet fake words. I like this.

2010-03-22T17:44:00.001+08:00

2010-03-19T23:14:00.001+08:00

Attachment is when I'm becoming an insane person and somehow disappear. I feel like giving up in everything I do. I feel irritated and tad annoyed with people around, for no particular reason. I don't smile and people come to me and say "hey smile lah (with this laugh)", feel really annoyed by this. Ugh. Bad day at work today. I can't stand it. I wanna give up. I realised this is not the line for me. When the day was about to end, there's blood stains on my WHITE uni. Go figure. Oh, and fuck to the short chinese nurse with slanted short hair with red specs on. I don't fucking care whether you're NM's pet. Just not my day today.

AU REVOIR SIMONE IN SG!

2010-03-17T17:21:00.002+08:00

(Late update) Au Revoir Simone was magical and mysterious. Awe- freaking-some. I'm pretty grateful that I had a chance to see them with an awesome company, thanks Gayaaaaaa J. (:

2010-03-14T11:45:00.003+08:00

Stereophonics is coming, live in Singapore. Why must all the great bands come at the wrong time!

So close yet so far.

2010-03-13T21:55:00.008+08:00

Random day yet again. Went for facial. Had lunch at manhattan fish market. Got a text from Atiq, met her, Tah and Ifran. Hang out a little while. And I saw "it" again. Twice today. Wanted to totally look at "it", but, I don't know how to say it here. I am fine.

2010-03-08T22:53:00.001+08:00

Im tired. Enough sleep, not enough sleep, still tired. Lethargic. Can't wait till end of March. I need my holidays. Had the best break time ever today cos you know why, I saw Haizad! Haha, I don't know why I can't get over it.

Ok I'm tired, don't talk to me.

I really am.

2010-03-06T17:27:00.002+08:00

... a right person, a job, studies, ...everything.

You are the best.

2010-03-04T21:25:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday mother. I love you. ♥

Daniel Hanney.

2010-02-28T17:45:00.001+08:00

HE'S ONE FINE PIECE OF MEAT. TOO HOT TO BE TRUE. MY NEW EYE CANDY. XOXOXOXO.

2010-02-28T10:31:00.003+08:00

And to think you stooped so low for a chance, that you threw it away.

Miss that still of silence.

2010-02-26T21:13:00.001+08:00

It's friday night. Feeling kinda... I don't know. Drinking my cup of milo, watching korean drama and twitter to keep me company.

2010-02-25T15:36:00.001+08:00

I'm tired. Can I give up now?

2010-02-21T01:40:00.002+08:00

Taking a break. I'm losing my brain cells. Eventhough it's only 0135hrs, I'm exhausted. Can I give up now? Nothing goes in, literally nothing. It's so frustrating! Seriously I can't wait for the exams to be over, get done and over with. Clueless, exhaustion, ok now everything made me tear up. Yes I know tears are for the weak. ):

One whole big colossal mess of disappointment.

2010-02-16T21:35:00.001+08:00

I was right. You are one whole big colossal mess of disappoinment.

2010-02-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

Just got home. The (one) most embarrassing day of my life, lah! Jeez.

2010-02-13T11:56:00.001+08:00

A faint sign my spoken best.

2010-02-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

Today was a totally a random day, I promise. Bumped, not exactly bumped, saw, a person. After almost 2 years. Shocked and unexpected, but it was fine. Good to have seen after so long.

Things are far out, electric is the air.

2010-02-10T23:26:00.001+08:00

I've not been in the world wide web for few days. Fb page has changed, I don't know that. Oh wells. Anyways, school is such a bore. Done with reports, last presentation tomorrow. I just can't wait for this to end. Seriously! I need a retail therapy please.

I'm having a dilemma. Went down to sistic to get Au Revoir Simone tickets, but lucky it was already closed. Cos I still don't know should I go for Au Revoir Simone or Chicago Musical. Ahhhh.

Placebo coming to town!

2010-02-06T14:29:00.000+08:00

Sucker love is heaven sent
You pucker up, our passion’s spent
My hearts a tart your body’s rent
My body’s broken yours is bent
Every me and every you

Up for it?

Short.

2010-02-02T21:26:00.001+08:00

Should I?

2010-01-31T23:23:00.003+08:00

I wish I could be photographed at my most beautiful moments.

2010-01-31T12:54:00.003+08:00

And I don't necessarily mean the moments I look the best. I mean, you know those rare occasions in my life when I smile and think to myself, "I wanna hold on to this forever." I want a photograph of myself at the place where I wanna be. I want to see a photograph of myself each time someone tells me how beautiful I am and how much they love me, see myself beam as I stand beside someone I love. I want to see myself laughing with my best closest friends as we talk about life and everything infinite, because time went far too quickly. I want to see all the parts of my life in which I've felt whole combined, the full picture. Wouldn't that be incredible.

BLG Live in SG!

2010-01-29T01:01:00.004+08:00

Saw Boys Like Girls live. It was seriously unplanned and very last minute. I realised they are hot people, very. Oh wells, I had an awesome The Great Escape time!

They say hate is a strong word.

2010-01-28T17:50:00.001+08:00

I never felt this way before. I never dislike a person so much before. Beyond dislike you.

NY, do you love me?

2010-01-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

Finally I've watched it.

WHY???!!!

2010-01-22T15:10:00.001+08:00

THE KILLERS [ CANCELLED ]